Blood Makes Noise… 
chapter VIII. Pegasus
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I wish they would just stop.
I wish it would all just stop.
I sit on the sofa, staring at my face reflected in the blankness of the television set. No lighting, no sound, no heat, no point.
They wouldn’t let me see Raven, after he was sick. But I heard them talking in the kitchen, when they thought I wasn’t around to hear.
“Are you taking the case?” Noriko had asked.
“I don’t know, Nori,” Monty had replied, standing over the sink with his head down, arms folded beneath him. “Even if I am free on Tuesday—”
“What? You have to help him, you know. He needs you.”
“What if I lose, huh? Could you imagine that? He’d never forgive me. He’d never let me live it down. I couldn’t deal with that. Fuck it, I didn’t ask for this kind of responsibility!”
He seemed close to breaking, but I couldn’t feel any pity for him. He was the one who’d told me not to see Raven. That it wasn’t a good idea right at that moment. He was the one who’d let that bastard in at the door, to tell Raven, to tell him…oh, God.
“Yeah, it’s not like you lawyers have a thing for dealing with responsibility, huh?” Noriko had said then, folding her arms across her chest.
Monty had shaken his head, standing up straight. “There’s a colleague of mine—you met Judy. She’s had a lot of experience with these sorts of things… I’ll put her onto it.”
“You don’t think he’s going to win, do you?”
They’d exchanged a glance, Monty open-mouthed but silent. Go on, say it, you arsehole, I’d urged silently through my darkness. Tell the truth.
